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That’s definitely something I’m very very interested in as well. My dick is not big when flaccid, but big when stiff. I would love to get to the point where I can always wear a cage like this https://lockthecock.ca/collections/metal-male-chastity-devices/products/stainless-steel-silver-cock-lock-chastity-device?variant=35894512812198 and the dick shrinks permanently. Is something like this possible? What can I do to get there?

it hates itself because it is a worthless faggot
it hates itself because it has got its drug addiction under control
it hates itself because it has too weak a personality
it hates itself because it gets its pathetic dick hard
it hates itself because it cannot assert itself
it hates itself because it always wants harmony
it hates itself because it does not manage to feed on extraordinarily little
it hates itself because it does not exercise enough
it hates itself because it does not offer itself a master
it hates itself because it always comes here repeatedly
it hates itself for trying to be noticed

You should ask SIR TODD for this.

I always – with breaks – come back to the lessons and read them. And I know, even I did it many times, I am just at the beginning to learn und understand what I am. But I had two big moments, when I started to understand and had an experience like an enlightment. One of theses moments was, when I awake the feeling inside me, when I was a teen and recognized what I am, and felt fear, and wrong, and that everybody would hate me if someone would discover it. I found that feeling again, and in this moment it was like a stone would drop – because I understand now, that this feeling of shame and to be wrong WAS RIGHT. It is the truth! The stone, which droped from my shoulders was the lie about myself, or what I learnd from the ‘community’ about equality. No – it is wrong, and I should be hatred for what I am – this is right and nothing is bad about this!

The second moment I had an ‘enlightment’ was, when God answered my question here and told me to apologize to my brother for my bad behaviour, when he asked me for a blow job some years ago. First moment, I thought, I never would do that – but a little time later, when high on meth, and doing my lessons, it grow to a big picture inside me, that of course is right! I should be happy to have such a brother, and it was a big failure of me, not to do it. And I felt a shame again. And I felt very sad about the chance I had and for the wrong way I have choosen. But, next time when wanking the pathetic dick, I was thinking about to give my brother a blow job. And I just had this picture in mind. This was the first time, and some month before I NEVER thought this would EVER happen. I know, this is the right path, and I want only follow this path!

These are two big aspects I see in very new light. And I know I never can give it back, what I owe to straight white man. And I owe God my life for the chance to learn and understand now.

Hello God, thank you for all the study material, the lessons they helped to see and accept the truth. All the material you provided, its easy to learn – but seriously also mindfucked and a real brainwash.

If you allow this fag to talk about things it would like to see on the website, my wish is:

– lessons they force to build deep shame and self hatred
– audio file (hypnofile) about shame and self hatred
– almost every time when I read postings of you God, I would like instantly praise you! Is it possible to have something like ‘thumbs up’ (of course a symbol that would please God, instead the thumb)?

Thank you God!

hello fag brother. just want say, feel same like you. I deeply regret what I have done many years ago, when I had my coming out. That was another big failure I really ashamed on now. That was selfish and dumb. Now I understand, that I have lived a big mistake so many years. To be gay is so unnatural, disgusting, and totally sick to think it would right to be in love with a man. I feel now which big shit I have done. I brought shame over my family. It was reckless and irresponsible how to play with the standing in society of my straight brothers and their families. And the pain it must for my mother, and how ashamed she has been after that sick acting of me, when she met people of her town. I understand and feel what a ugly perverted sick faggot I am. No one of my family has deserved that, to get in connection with such a lowlife I am. I damaged many people’s life in past with simple to be gay, I can never make amends. But I feel now that gays should not have special rights – on the contrary they should have less rights in society. Just to not harm other right people with their existence.

I read them in one part! These lessons are mind blowing. Thank you so much for posting them here.